I like this

OMG Darla!

REALLY did I let myself get this way?
REALLY did I go out of the house looking like this?
REALLY?


This is disgusting.
GROSS.
SICK.
What progress HAVE I made??


If this IS NOT motivation and an eye opener I do
not know what is???

two BIG things

http://www.wix.com/MADMarathon/themadmarathon

Lezhai's MAD marathon site -- freaking LOVE THIS!


and

SKINNY JEANS!
I got back into my size 20 skinny capris today!
I coudl not get in them ALL SUMMER LONG and I finallly
poured myself in them again! WOOOOOOOOOT!

Mesa Falls

Last weekend I got drug with the girls
to the Mesa Falls Run in Ashton.
Carlee, Lisa n I did the 5K - ok, LISA
did the 5K, Carlee and I puttered behind her.
I ran a little, but felt guilty leaving Carlee
and walked back to her twice and finally decided
to just walk it with her. We did 'trot' into the
finish line but it was unjustified glory to me.
Silly?
Maybe.
Next year we want to RUN the 1/2 Marathon up there
and I am feeling anxious but motivated about it.

What's going on?
I have been doing p90X on MWF with the girls
at church - getting core, arms and legs strength
trianing in. Also been doing walking and a bit of
jogging in each day. Want to kick it out at the
Rim2Rim in a couple of weeks.

Doing WW points again - Christy gave me new books
and sliders and a ton of info to motivate me. I lost
almost 3 lbs in day 1 so I think maybe THAT will
motivate me?

Sept is THE MONTH for me - heading into my 39th
bday and thinking I need to work it to the max -
set my sights HIGH and my scales LOW (he hee)

Mesa Falls Fun Run and Marathon Weekend

So, back during the Sawtooth Relay the girls made a pact
Carlee, Lisa, Maime and Chrissy
that they would all do the Mesa Falls 1/2 Marathon together


Fast forward from June to August - today was the Mesa Falls.
Chrissy was the only one doing the 1/2 - Carlee and Lisa
signed up for the 5K and Maime and her kids for the 1 mile
fun run. Last minute last night they invited me to join them
and I fell for it! LOL

So, they picked me up at 6 this morn and we headed to Ashton.
Chrissy was toted around by Jake and the kids for her 1/2 and
we caught up later.

5K
Carlee and I held back and let Lisa go for it. Carlee had a
bad cough (bronchitis?) and a pulled tooshie muscle. I ran
a few times then walked back to her and eventually we just
speed walked it through... Lisa kicked boote' and did the run
in 42 minutes! Carlee and I did it in 57 minutes. Bummerz...

We then followed Chrissy around the last half of her run and
she was amazing ... she ran the 13.5 miles in 2 hrs 7 minutes!!!
Sandy and Craig even came out to cheer her on at the finish line!

So, it was fun and we are all fired up for the Rim2Rim in a few
weeks. The others even talked about maybe coming to Carlee's for it
too! FUN STUFF!

not good

not doing good
have not run AT ALL this week
have not done p90x
going to fail the weigh in big time
signed up for the MAD marathon training
with Lezhai and am afraid
weight is up
fatigue is up
energy is down
attitude is down
self image is down

just want to SCREAMMMMM

busy week!

I did REALLY well this past week!
I ran Mon and Tues,
took Wed off,
Ran Thurs and Fri,
took Sat off (aside from workingmy BUTT off
at the fundraiser)
and will do my 5 mile tomorrow!!!
Then on to next week... going to be
running a mile straight by next week!
I cannot wait!!!!!!!!!!
Then in that week I'll work up to 2 miles!
Then 3
and 4
and maybe 5 or 6 or 7 even???
AmAzInG!!!

I am feeling good about where I am.
NOT feeling good about my weigh in's
but I am trying not to focus on that so much
ha, right.

ran again

Ran again this a.m. Lisa May went with me
she is training for the 5k/1/2 marathon
run up at Mesa Falls with Carlee, Chrissy,
Jake and Maime... I am not doing that.
I am working towards the 7.5 Rim2Rim
in ONE MONTH!!!!!
Anyway, Lisa and I did about 2 miles, just
an easy peasy one. I *DID* do a 1/2 mile straight
on the track at ERJHS - just gotta keep pushing myself
a little more each day!

I think that photo reminds me of what I missed out on
this summer.... but next month it will be me and my
silly sisters in the photo! Cannot wait! :O)

It was a tough one though this a.m. - I don't do as
well (mentally??) when I go with someone. Setting my
own goals and own pace is better I think. However,
I love Lisa so we'll work on it!

Sat I have my 5 miler to do - then next week is 6 miles
and then 7 every Sat up to the run day on Sept 18th!!!!

Still no P90X this week - gotta get the schedule figured up
for that one SOON!

I ran this morning

I can do this - all by myself.
ALONE is not always a bad thing.
Self reliance - it is good.

Did a loop around the neighborhood and one time around the ERJHS track...
all together about 2 miles in 35 minutes... I ran the track one time in
4 min, then another short run about 3.5 min and then one last one at
4.5 min... so basically about 3 mini 1/4 mile trots. Felt good. No aches.
Didn't push too hard. I am happy with it.
I have 34 days to train for Rim2Rim and a LOT of work to do. I am plotting
out a routine to work towards so I'll be ready!
Felt REALLLLY good to run in the old/new neighborhood again. Something
about that area drives me to go a bit more. Weird. I know.

Getting thru the Blake thing - just need to move on. He didn't do
anything wrong. Lisa has her own issues and Nari DEFINATLY has hers.
I cannot let people get into my head. This is MY life and I will
make it or break it.

P90X routine has got to get somewhere in here too... maybe just
a couple days a week? Not sure yet. Still moving n settling in
the house so I will work with it. :O)

For today : I am OK

what DID I do?

DAMN YOU DARLA!!!! STOP THIS NOW!
I am flopping on my p90x
only did 2 workouts this week :O(
kept saying I would go, was so
busy and worn out and tired from
the move but like Blake says
'excuses are like assholes,
everyone's got one and they
are all full of shit'
and speaking of Blake ...
big vent to myself.
WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING DARLA???
After all these months of f'd up issues
with Blake and Lisa - months of heartache
and hurt and feeling lost and angry and
sadness and frustration and guilt and worry
and every other emotion - after THERAPY and
DRUGS - after turning off my family and sisters
after f'ing up at work- here I am.
Oh yea, thank you sir for moving the piano
and waltzing right back in like nothing ever
changed and just pick back up - joke, laugh,
tease, torment - HELL NO! Am I seriously going
to play this shit? I know there is another side
to all this but I honestly have spent MONTHS
hurting because of Blake and Lisa and then suddenly
in the past 2 days Blake is right back "in our lives"
and it's like nothing ever even happened?
I do NOT get it. I tried to put up a 'wall' and
just be cordial - it was too awkward. He is too
sweet and friendly and then I felt like a guilty
bitch for being cold and rude. *I* felt guilty!!??
ME? After being dumped and ignored and shit on for
MONTHS ON END I felt guilty for just being cordial?
WTF is going on Darla? Grow a pair or seomthing already.


It is time DARLA takes care of DARLA
no more doormat and being taken adv of.
No more games. Take charge, take care of
yourself Darla - physically, mentally, emotionally.


Don't let others f with you anymore!!!!!!!



SET SOME GOALS! DO IT!

*GET ON THE p90X program NOW
* GET ON your running NOW
* WORK on your testing for work NOW
* Be the mom and wife you should be for YOU and for no one else!

FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF YOUR GOALS and ACHIEVEMENTS!
NOW!

WHAT DO YOU WANT???

ouch OUCH ouch

I want to look like

THIS:


O U C H!!!!

My stomach/abs hurt so so bad!
I really pushed the ab ripper this a.m.
and i am paying for it.
I went for a short, leasurely walk
this evening and had a side cramp???
Totally know I overdid it for sure.
UGH!








but THIS:



will keep me going....

Day 2 Week 3 (minus a week)

So, I did week 1 and 2 faithfully
then I took last week off - for moving- HA
So I decided no excuses and joined back up
at week 3 again...

Today was day 2 of week 3
We did Yoga and then Ab Ripper
OMG I am dying

My stomach hurts so bad I feel like
puking - for real :O(

I *am* getting the hang of some of the moves though
which is good I hope?

we shall see...

p90x - please to meet your aquaintance again...

Ahhhh after a week off....
I was back at it again today!
Christy and Lezhai showed up
and at 6 a.m. we were pumping
iron baby!
Core synergistics this morning
and it FELT GREAT!
I WILL MEET MY GOAL by my birthday!
I WILL WILL WILL do it!

fat - lazy - excuses

I feel like a slacker...
BIG TIME!



I really really really really want to
reach THIS GOAL by my birthday... just a month
and a half away...



Which means I need to get ON the P90X workouts and jogging and
do a LOT more of these:














and when I am jogging I can
think THIS way to motivate myself...



or this way even more - DOUBLE...no, TRIPLE motivation!!!!




I hate fat lazy excuses
and I am full of them lately! I need to get my crap
together and DO THIS! NOW!

WEEK 2 -- P90X

Well, week 2 has not been so great
I was sick Mon and Christy was sick Tues
so today was our first day this week.
We did the arms/shoulders/back workout with
the bonus - we were supposed to do the abb ripper
but i did not have it in me.

I *did* however go for a 2 mile power walk
after that felt good.

Burnin' calories. Getting ready for the wedding.
Want to look GooD in the little black dress!!!!
Darla

feeling FAT

NOT feeling chubbylike my little friend up there
NOT feeling a little chunky
or like I am retaining some water

no

I feel fat
I feel fat and frustrated
5 days of this P90X and I am
aching and sore and tired
I feel happy that I am staying with it
and I am feeling very goal set/oriented

but I feel oh so fat!
The scales are going UP UP UP 5 LBS IN ONE WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and I feel like giving up
but I won't.

day 5 P90X torture

i am dying

legs/back and
ab ripper today

i pulled something in my left
'cheek' iykwim - ugh

day 4 small victory

well, i wieghed in


small victory there


not down much but down a little
down to 223.8 which is better
than the 225 I was at

- I keep
telling myself I am
building muscle
building muscle
and my body is holding on to the fat
but it is quite discouraging to work
so hard and have it flip back in your face

I WANT TO GET TO 199 SO FREAKING BAD!!!!!!!

DAY FOUR --- YOGA YOUCHA YICK

today was day 4 of p90x
YOGA

so, when I have done yoga in the past
it was calming and relaxing and just
a peaceful wonderful thing

this? not.
it was hard and i was sweating and
i think i pulled something in my left
ass-cheek! ouch!

I am scared/anxious to weigh myself
today. this week has been frustrating
big time. scales are NOT reflecting
all my hard work - at all :O(

so, here goes nothing egh?

third weight loss group (short session)

‎1. $10 up front fee
2. Winner takes all. (Person with the highest % of weight loss will win the entire pot) (NOT! 1st place is 60% and 2nd is 40%)
3. No drinking water before initial weigh-in. (This is considered cheating)
4. Weigh-in's will be July 16th, Aug 13th and the final weigh in will be Aug 27th!If you are interested in joining then please let me know. We will collect the fee this next week, otherwise you will not be considered a qualifier.... See More

We will be starting another competition in the fall (Sept 1st - Jan 1st)! It will be the Holiday Competition that will be open to everyone wanting to either lose weight or maintain their weight! It will be a lot of fun, and helpful keeping us on track through the holidays!

So excited to head this up and we are looking forward to this next competition!

ripped

P90X DAY 3

-SHOULDERS and ARMS

and ...

- AB RIPPER

you read that right:
AB RIPPER
oyeoye oye...

Shoulders and arms was good, felt good
did well. Completed the whole hour of it
and felt positive. Skipped the cool down
and went into the AB RIPPER bonus cd
15 min of pure hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am ripped danggit - to shreds!
My gutt never hurt so bad in my life.
Not to mention my lower back and neck too -
I had to sub A LOT of crunches in there for the mass
number of moves I COULD NOT do at all :O(

ripped or ripped up?

When I grow up and quit growing OUT

-with this p90x workout i have big asperations
ok so no, i won't be a jillian michaels but i can
have a drive can't i?
she is SO amazing
and so beautiful
and if i need a mentor
she is a good one

i am miserable sore but feel so
positive!!!!

p90x day 2

today was CARDIO

more like torturio
ugh

lots of the same moves as yesterday
lots of stretches and stuff to make
your "goo" as the instructor put it
go to work

I have goo? ok

well, it was a shorter workout about 40 min
was all - but i stuck thru it - goo n all

more numbers

so, my official start numbers are
weight 222.2 lbs

measurements
neck 16
chest 50
upper waist (skinny part) 42
belly 55
hips 57
thighs 23
calve 16
upper arm 13.5

here we GOOOOOOO

P90X Day 1

Wow.
Well, we had some confuzzles today
and we ended up going for a good 2.5 mi
walk first then back to Lezhai's for
our very first workout.
CORE SYNERGENGIX ?? I think it was?
whatever - who cares - it was ROUGH!
It was not *as* rough as I worried
but it was a killer workout!
We did bannanas and supermans and
lunges and squats and pushups
and bannanas and on and on. Some were
easy and some I just could NOT do at all
so I improvised. Nevertheless, I am in pain.
My lower abs are KILLING ME already
and my inner/front thighs are *T*I*G*H*T*!!!
I will be moving SLOW tommorrow!
But, I made it through day one! WOOOOT!!
Still need to measure too! :O{

PRE P90X Photos - oye vey!!!!!

OH MY HECK!!!!!!!












So, since no one will see this, and it's all for me me me
and to see what happens with this P90X program - whew!
I hope n pray this helps A LOT! I also did the lil' digital
gameboy thinger that Lezhai has... it told me that according
to my height, weight, age, ect that I am at 44.8% fat and have
a BMI of 39.4 - ugh! My current weight is about 222 lbs and
I am wearing size 20/22 jeans and 18/20 shirts.
We didn't get to measure YET... so that is yet to come but
here is my SERIOUSLY SERIOUS reality check.
Wearin' a tight tee shirt and my snuggy workout capris!
Talk about incentive!!!

whatcha doing?

not much
talking to myself
hey
it's a good conversation
hey darla
why are you not getting up
early and going to the gym?
why are you not counting WW
points?
shall i continue or just keep
fighting between 230-220 lbs?
cRaZy me

Little Women "Rules" 4-17-2010

Sidnie Bunderson Houghton Rules for Little Women
Little Women Challenge The most important part of this competition is you! We want to create a support group for you. You are amazing and can do this. If you are struggling count on your team to help you through it. Don't give up and don't forget that I know how h...ard this is so you can always talk to me. Oh and of course enjoy the journey you are on. Now get out there and burn some calories.

1. Everyone has to weigh in on the same scale at the same time. I (Sidnie) will do the weigh in each week with the contestants team captain present.

2. We are measuring the percent of body weight lost. The calculation: Your actual weight (each weigh in) subtracted from your initial weight. Then divide that number by your initial (starting) weight, times 100...or just ask Sidnie! (Me!)

2. The first weigh in will be on Saturday, April 17 at 8 a.m. At the Clarence St LDS Church Bldg.

3. The final weigh in will be on July 17th at 8:00 a.m. At the Clarence St LDS Church Bldg.

4. Weigh-in’s will occur every Saturday morning at 8:00 a.m. at the same location, unless otherwise notified.

5. There is a $5 registration fee which MUST be paid at your first weigh in. This is a one time Fee. (Hence, Registration Fee)

6. You can join at any time during the first three weeks (but it will be harder to win).

7. All money owed to the pot should be paid during the time of weigh in or prior to the following weigh in.

8. There will be a $1 weigh in fee, per week, applied to all contestants.(Weekly Weigh In Fee)

9. The winners of the individual contest will be the top two contestants, determine by the largest percentage of body weight lost. Those winners will each get 40% of the registration money only.

10. The team competition will go as follows. Each person on the team will have a goal they set of weight loss. If you meet your goal at 6 weeks you will receive 2 points for your team. If you meet your goal at the end you will receive 3 points.
When we have team challenges and your team or someone on your team wins then your team will get a point. The weekly weigh-in money will go to the winning team. If both teams win, they both get a point. At the end 20% of the registration fee will go to the team with the most points. (This is going to be fun.)

11. Team captains have been selected. They will encourage their team to work together, determine weekly goals and organize challenges for the teams. They will make their team laugh occasionally, but no snorting please. Each team member will play a vital role in the execution of team responsibilities.

12. There will be a chart stating what percentage others have lost or gained but no record of actual weigh will be posted. This allows us to be accountable to our team.

13. To get your weekly dollar back you must weigh-in every single week on my scale, If you can't be there on Saturday than call and I will bring the scale to you or you can drop by and weigh here. You will be allowed to miss two weigh-ins (I don't recommend doing this).

If you stick with the program your money will be awarded back to your team and then back to you.

darla's inspiration for running

just for myself - no one reads this blog anyway soooo a good place to hide out my personal photos that I need to reflect upon?
So, I put on all the sweaters I want to look REALLY great in with a nice
skirt of slacks or some smokin' hot jeans! Where are my problem spots???