feeling FAT

NOT feeling chubbylike my little friend up there
NOT feeling a little chunky
or like I am retaining some water

no

I feel fat
I feel fat and frustrated
5 days of this P90X and I am
aching and sore and tired
I feel happy that I am staying with it
and I am feeling very goal set/oriented

but I feel oh so fat!
The scales are going UP UP UP 5 LBS IN ONE WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and I feel like giving up
but I won't.